I know that I have been a little non-existent for the last couple of weeks and I apologize. I have been preparing for a writing conference. I leave tomorrow morning for Charlotte, NC. This is the biggest leap of faith I have ever taken with my writing. I feel nervous and excited all at the same time. Part of me feels inadequate and I have to fight the feeling to bail altogether. It seems like a million and five things went wrong today as I packed my bags. I suddenly felt terrified and the tears spilled all to easily. More than once. God had to wait patiently on me today as I whined about how could I ever think for a second that I am good enough to stand with real authors and agents and publishers. I even asked Him what He could have possibly been thinking to not slam a door in my face to stop this whole thing. But then He whispered to me, "You are good enough. I created you. How could you doubt? I believe in you. It will all happen when I am ready for it to." I felt peace for the first time in days. Deep down I know God has a plan for me. I know He will use me when He gets ready to, but I have to trust Him no matter what happens. I just ask that you all be a little bit patient for a few more days and I will be back to writing blogs again next week. I look forward to telling you about all the awesome things God did right before my eyes. God chooses to do amaze us and bless us with gifts. Hundreds of women will be gathered together and we are all waiting on God. I believe this will be an incredible weekend filled with amazement and wonder. Remember when you were a kid and on Christmas Eve you couldn't fall asleep because you just knew that the one gift you had waited on would be under the tree the next morning? That is how I feel right now. As if there is something great and wonderful waiting on me. Finally the excitement is overtaking the fears of inadequacy and I can rest easy knowing God has everything in control, that He loves me, that He wants to bless me. God gives good gifts and I am excited to find out what He has in store for me.
Peace, Love and Blessings,
Elizabeth